For some time now, I’ve questioned whether or not I need deliverance or if all my issues lie squarely with me. Is it, in fact, ALL ME? Or do my issues stem from something far deeper? I’m aware that we all have certain strongholds in our life we must pray and work through to overcome and I practice this daily. BUT, I also believe many of us require deliverance from unclean spirits that we don’t even know are there! I believe this because the other night was confirmation for me on this very matter.
You see, I “went” to another miracle meeting (2021 Miracle Meeting #4) via the zoom. They are hosted by Pastor Mark Hemans of Jesus Encounter Ministries and I’ve been following him for at least four years now. Ever since I came across one of his videos on YouTube, I’ve been a loyal follower. I was looking forward to going to a meeting in person, but the CCP Virus prevented Pastor Mark from traveling. So my planned attendance to a meeting in Connecticut for August of 2020 was canceled. Fortunately, for us, God is not limited by our earthly restrictions.
As I prepared for the online meeting, I made sure to write down what I wanted to say in case I was located by the Holy Spirit. But alas, I was never picked out of the crowd and decided that I should stay for the prayer group at the end. I have had a habit of leaving these meetings once they end, only wanting prayer from Pastor Mark. I know this attitude is wrong so, this time, I stayed despite the temptation to leave a couple of times; once when the main meeting ended and once while I was in the actual prayer room waiting for my turn.
By the time my name was called I felt sort of numb and hesitant to even speak. I managed to get out the meat of what I wanted to say. I mentioned how I wanted more from God. I said I wanted to be baptized in His Holy Spirit and His Fire. I want all and any gifts He wants to give me, but I’ve felt for quite some time that there is a sort of wall or barrier which prevents me from receiving.
The first thing the prayer helper (I think her name may have been Anna?) asked me was if I listened to worldly music.
“No. Not at all,” I immediately replied.
Then she suggested that maybe it’s a lack of faith or unbelief because God doesn’t withhold His gifts from us, we just don’t receive them. DUH, I thought to myself, feeling a bit annoyed. I had already stated that I was having trouble receiving. And I regularly ask the Lord to show me if I have any unbelief or doubt unbeknownst to me and, if so, to please forgive me and help me.
She then proceeded to explain how we need to diligently seek God. While she was speaking my head shook no as I visualized the handwritten scripture of Hebrews 11:6 pinned to my bathroom wall.
Surely the irritation was becoming visible upon my face. At this point I’m wondering if this lady can even hear from the Holy Spirit or is she just going down a presupposed list?
Tears began to materialize out of frustration. That’s when I do believe she stopped throwing out suggestions and began rebuking something to come out of me. I soon felt something manifest. I’d seen this plenty of times in the ministry videos but now I was personally experiencing it. With my eyes firmly clenched shut, I felt as though my neck were trying to compress into itself. It became quite tense and felt thick like a tree stump. I could feel a distinct pressure building directly underneath my jawline on each side of my neck. I think at one point I may have involuntarily let out a growly groan. Whatever this was, it most certainly was not me. I felt the urge to cough, so I did. (I know all about the different ways a demon can leave the body when commanded.) The prayer helper told me to cough some more, so I did. She then asked me how I felt, so I told her about the pressure and she said it was a spirit.
I think they all (everyone in the group) expected me to be able to speak in tongues after that and I felt a bit pressured to try. So, despite feeling self-conscious and to be honest, a bit cynical and annoyed since I’ve been down this road before, I stepped out in faith by opening my mouth and giving a lame “la, la, la” effort in hopes my speech would turn “heavenly.” That didn’t happen.
I’ve pondered a bit on the feelings I experienced amidst this prayer session; the feelings of annoyance, irritation and cynicism. Were those feelings even mine? (Well, the cynicism is all mine. It took me years to develop that kind of distrust due to repeated failed attempts at speaking in tongues, public and private.) Or are my feelings and emotions being influenced by these unclean spirits that have apparently taken up residence within the deep caverns of my body and soul? I’m sure they didn’t want me to receive prayer which is why I felt tempted to leave more than once. And how long have they been there? And why? What was the root cause which permitted them to enter? When did they enter?!? Who are they? A spirit of rejection, perhaps? Fear? Self-hatred? These are all questions I have, but no answers were offered.
But I digress . . .
So, as my head is turning from side to side in a steady ‘NO’ gesture whilst attempting to “activate” the gift of tongues by speaking a few “la la la’s,” the feelings of annoyance and frustration become stronger. That’s when the lady started commanding another spirit to come out from wherever it was hiding. I, myself, even tried commanding it to leave by tearfully yelling, “Get out of me in the name of Jesus!” But this thing wasn’t leaving and I think she needed to move on to others still waiting in the prayer room. She ended our time by saying how she believed my deliverance would continue throughout the night. I might even feel the need to throw up later, she said. So, out of faith, I agreed with her and stated that I believe this to be true.
I never got sick that night; never felt the urge to throw up, as she had suggested. Never felt anything else try to leave my body. But I did feel weird waves of a pins-and-needles type sensation in my left leg as I lay in bed that night. I have felt this sensation many a time before, but always chalked it up to some odd, bodily fluke. But that pressure I felt in my neck had an eerily similar sensation. So now I’ve ascertained this feeling to be a manifestation, not some bodily-function anomaly. At least now I’m aware of what it truly is. (I’m sure that must piss this “thing” off since it/they seem to prefer to remain hidden.) I suppose I could be wrong and it’s just chills I’m feeling (but it happens a lot). . . Either that or I’m just plain crazy, but I don’t think so.
So, I’m thinking I still need deliverance; I’m not convinced they have all “left the building.” I also think the asthma I struggle with is connected, as well. I’m praying the Lord will finish this work He has begun in me so that I can continue on in my walk, stronger and more confident than ever before. I want to be able to help others receive deliverance, healing, and freedom from the enemy, but it must first start with me.
Conspiracy Theories
It’s official. Discernment has left the building.
I sat on this for days, but after viewing some random guy videoing snipers atop the White House (which I do feel Holy Spirit led me to) I had to comment on YouTube regarding this interview. So here it is . . . (actual interview is posted below)
I wasn’t going to comment but, after seeing only a few others raise the same concerns, I’ve decided to express mine as well . . .
I found it odd that when this Charlie Ward guy mentioned the false god, Allah (around 39:17), Dave never stated in response that Jesus is the only one true God. That would have given Jesus glory, hence the name of Dave’s program, ‘His Glory.’ I must admit, his lack of defense for the Truth troubled me.
Also, why was there no explanation at the beginning of this interview of who Charlie Ward is? A brief introduction would have been helpful. And I found his 3rd and 5th dimension talk to be extremely “new-agey.” It’s just language I didn’t expect to find on this platform and to hear Dave yessing and mmm-hmmming in agreement confused me as to what he actually believes.
And why does no one ever ask THIS question . . . If Biden is truly on some Hollywood set and not in the White House, WHY would he and his administration play along knowing that they are not legitimate?!? People are losing jobs right now. I would say that, FOR THEM, it’s pretty darn real. To say this is all one big Hollywood production doesn’t make any sense! Would love for someone to explain to me why it DOES make sense. Crazy that no one in the comments has brought this up!
As far as no snipers on the White House is concerned, I just saw a video where you can clearly see snipers on the roof of the White House. Go visit penguinsix YouTube channel and click on the video titled, ‘White House construction update from next door in Lafayette Park and Marine One helicopter returns.’ At three minutes in you will see them.
I’m not trying to start trouble here; just hate misinformation. I recently started watching this channel because of Amanda Grace, but a lot of stuff spoken in this video raised quite a few red flags for me.
Not saying nothing spoken in this video was true, but most can’t be vetted, either. I looked up NESARA/GESARA and everything it lists it will do sounds like a Utopian dream come true, one of them being it “Establishes peace throughout the world.” MAJOR. RED. FLAG. Only Jesus Christ can and will do that when he comes back. So yeah, sounds too good to be true and it’s exactly what our itching ears want to hear. This NESARA/GESARA thing sounds more like a false sense of peace and security since I know the bible teaches that Satan is the god of this world and we all know the great tribulation is inevitable. Heck, I would LOVE for the Federal Reserve Bank, the IRS, and the shadow government to be completely done away with and for the USA to be returned back to Constitutional Law; the way it was originally intended. Not to mention forgiveness of debt (another NESARA claim) would be great. Just using a bit of discernment and asking questions. This interview in particular has me second guessing this platform. Something doesn’t smell right.
Listen, I’ve been right alongside y’all believing that God is not done with this country and I’ve been wholeheartedly praying for God’s justice to prevail and for all the evil done in secret to be exposed. Can God do anything? OF COURSE HE CAN! And I hope to see Him work a great miracle in this country that brings Him glory and wins souls. I have not lost hope. I’m still believing for God to bring revival to the church and four more years (hopefully more than that) of grace, but let’s not forget what the bible warns us is coming.
Regardless of what does or does not happen . . . Jesus Christ is still King. Stay strong in the Lord and look to Him for peace, not man.
Posted by thisgirlcalledmindy on February 14, 2021 in My Journey as a Follower of Jesus Christ and tagged 2 Timothy 4:3-4, conspiracy theories, discernment, Jesus is King, misinformation, YouTube comments.
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