If God is a loving god then why did He bother creating me? Because just existing is pure torture.


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  1. The world is a broken place and your pain grieves Him terribly as does the suffering of everyone who feels its effects. I hope He will draw near to you and comfort you with what you are going through because you definitely shouldn’t have to face it alone.

  2. God loves you. He created you in His image. I don’t have the right words and I attempted to take my life on 9/14/14 (“My Story”). Reading Lamentations 3 may help guide us in our suffering. Don’t give up my fellow warrior.

  3. If you do believe in God how can you believe he created you in a negative image? I’m a non-believer, so I believe I create my own reality. The good news is that you can too. You have more than enough time and ability to recreate yourself if you do not like what you see, feel like, or do.

    The only thing holding you back is you. Your life can’t be all bad. You have the mental capacity to use the Internet, you can obviously think, so what is holding you back? As cliche as this sounds, everyone is good at something. You just need to set aside time to find that thing.

    I found myself in a depressed state not too long ago, but I found this site and my life has gotten so much better. I’m not the greatest writer, but I feel like my words have touched a few people. Happiness is a selfish emotion. No one else can give it to you, so you have to find it.

    Good luck!

    • I was speaking from a dark place. I struggle with depression and I’m in the middle of an “episode” at the moment….. I don’t believe God created me in a negative image, so thank you for pointing that out, although I was merely trying to somehow express my inner turmoil with words. Your first sentence was actually very helpful, though, and I will continue to ponder it… Hadn’t thought of it that way…but when I’m deep in a rage I don’t tend to think rationally. You are proof that God can work through anyone, so thank you.

      As far as “re-creating” myself goes, well, it’s not about re-creating myself…it’s about learning who I am….who I truly am. You actually hit the nail on the head. I am made in God’s image. It’s just hard to grasp, but since you’re a “non-believer” you wouldn’t understand my current struggle. It’s about learning how to stop believing the lies I have believed about myself. It’s not about finding something I’m good at. That’s not a problem and you’re opening up a whole other can of worms with that one and I’m too tired to get into it. Basically, you know nothing of my life and what I deal with. I know you mean well, but you have no idea who I am or what I have been going through for a very long time. And I don’t think you have a full understanding of clinical depression. I’m sorry if this response comes off a bit chilly…not my intentions…it’s just the place I’m currently at. Eventually, I will find my way out of this dark pit like I always do…. but I appreciate you trying to reach out.

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