The depression I’ve struggled with for about 28 years is GONE. I was delivered from this life-long battle on April 22, 2016, once and for all. It’s been almost two weeks and I’m still experiencing a freedom I’ve never experienced before. There have been many times when I thought I had beaten it, where I thought perhaps NOW I’m free only to find myself back in the pit once again. But this time the heaviness I have been so accustomed to carrying around is completely gone!
A friend had invited me to go and listen to an evangelist by the name of Anthony Greve share his testimony. Almost didn’t go because one of my cats was sick, but I ended up going and I’m so glad I did. We were sitting in the pews listening to this guy speak when he began walking down the aisle. Our eyes were locked much longer than I was comfortable with so I broke the gaze. But eventually he had headed back down and was once again looking right at me. He asked if he could pray for me so I stood up and stepped out into the aisle. Now, I just want to mention that I was actually feeling pretty good that night. I was on an “upswing”, if you will, so depression was the last thing on my mind. Didn’t occur to me that he would mention depression. I thought maybe he was gonna pray for my knees or something. So when he began to tell me how I’ve been struggling with depression I was a bit surprised. God had clearly told him that about me. Anthony proceeded to tell me how this depression is not a medical condition but a spiritual attack. He asked me if I was on any meds for it and I said no. I stopped taking anti-depressants over two years ago because I knew that after taking them for more than ten years they weren’t helping me. Pills were not the answer, just a band-aid. I lifted up my arms and he began to pray over me…commanding all depression to leave in the name of Jesus. I felt the Holy Spirit come over me and as I began to fall back I could hear him say “There it goes. It’s gone”. Then someone caught me in mid-fall. He continued to tell me that I would never again struggle with depression; that I was free. Then I sat back down in my pew real quick.
I wasn’t sure how I felt about it at first because I’ve been prayed over for this many, many times. I was feeling a little skeptical. I told him that I wanted to believe that I’m healed and he basically said that it’s not about WANTING to believe…just believe it. Receive it. As the night went on I felt better and better. I walked out feeling so encouraged. I soon realized that I needed to give up the marijuana as well. I contacted Anthony through Facebook and this was our conversation…(everything I share publicly here isn’t anything Anthony hasn’t shared in his testimony before, which is why I feel it’s OK to share our private conversation)
4/23, 12:15pm Evangelist Anthony Greve
I felt the Lord say this, watch what you put into your spirit. What you watch and listen to is what’s opening up doors for the enemy and those suicidal spirits of depression. Watch your intake. If it’s not of God shut it out, get away from the secularism and stick with worship.
4/23, 4:20pm Mindy Beth Matarazzo
(funny how it happened to be 4:20 when I asked this! Ha ha!)
I gotta ask you this one thing though, and I’m probably not going to like your answer but here it goes…..I enjoy marijuana. I’ve cut back but I still use it every night. Can that open up doors?
4/24, 1:40am Evangelist Anthony Greve
As I mulled this over in my head I found I couldn’t smoke my weed without conviction. That’s kind of a buzz kill, I gotta say. I decided to research it a bit and realized Anthony was right. I had been justifying this for years. By day three I was really struggling not to get high….
4/28, 9:12pm Mindy Beth Matarazzo
I don’t want to keep bothering you but I know you have experience with this….Really struggling right now. I want to do what’s right but I also REALLY want to use up the tiny bit I have left. I gave away my quarter-full baggy to someone today, but I still have a tiny bit left and I can’t seem to throw it down the toilet. You think God would give me a pass this one time? Help! I’ve been using every day for the last ten years. This is so hard. I guess the fact that I’m so sad to let it go proves how much I rely on it. I even confessed to some fellow Christians at church last night, renounced it and they prayed for me….Yet, here I am, sitting on my couch duking it out with myself to the point of tears.
4/28, 9:18pm Evangelist Anthony Greve
Mindy, first of all you are never ever a bother to me. You can feel free to contact me anytime. No. To pass on God means to be in agreement with the devil. Flush it down the toilet and blow the devil a kiss goodbye. The reason it’s hard is the enemy has you believing that it’s worth holding onto and that’s a complete lie. He doesn’t want you free living for God and walking in the freedom that Christ has for you.
4/28, 9:20pm Evangelist Anthony Greve
This healing has been a process. I believe there were things I still had to go through and figure out and learn before I could receive my complete healing. Everyone is different.
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